In light of many related stories circulating right now, I recognize a residual trigger. I have an important step to take in my journey to wholeness. For lent this year, I'm giving up the violence that has silently been sustained by guilt and shame. I give up my greatest regrets. I will pray with this each day through this season. My guess is there is an untold number of people that I could hold with me in this prayer. Grace and peace to each of you.
I forgive myself for not watching where he hid the key. I forgive myself for not saying "no" "soon enough" or "loudly enough". I forgive myself for not trusting my own power. I forgive myself for not "fighting harder." I forgive myself for the silence. I forgive myself for the the others that suffered at the same hands. I forgive myself for becoming apathetic toward myself. I forgive myself for taking 30 years to forgive myself. I forgive myself. I receive Grace, for-give-ness sake. I celebrate finding the hidden key. I celebrate being free.